Well, it’s happened, I’ve written myself into a corner.
In a normal time I would be able to back up and deal with this, but with the amount of anxiety and stress that I’ve been under, I just had to walk away for a while. I’m at a point with my mental health that going through a re-write would just cause me too much upset, so I’m going to deal with it when I’m in a better place.
Where does that leave me? Well, of the 30k words I wanted to write this month I’ve written 5,138. Yeah, not great. So for the last 10-ish days of the month I’m going to scrap my original plan. I’m still going to aim for 30k words, but I’m going to work on the projects that draw me and make me happy. I’m going to be happy with just getting certain scenes done if that’s what I can do.
I know everyone is in a different situation, some people are handling this time with a much lower amount of stress, but in my case I am a ball of stress, anxiety and depression. I have to recognize that and work to not worsen the situation – so if I don’t exactly meet this goal I’m not going to beat myself up over it.
I’ve definitely had to prioritize self-care right now, and I have to be ok with that. I’m still working a 40 hour work week (thankfully from home) so while I’m at home, I’m still not having as much free time as you would think. I’m going to write when I’m inspired to write and just be ok with it.
How is everyone else doing? Are you getting any good writing done?
Happy writing and stay safe!