Well, it’s happened, I’ve written myself into a corner.
In a normal time I would be able to back up and deal with this, but with the amount of anxiety and stress that I’ve been under, I just had to walk away for a while. I’m at a point with my mental health that going through a re-write would just cause me too much upset, so I’m going to deal with it when I’m in a better place.
Where does that leave me? Well, of the 30k words I wanted to write this month I’ve written 5,138. Yeah, not great. So for the last 10-ish days of the month I’m going to scrap my original plan. I’m still going to aim for 30k words, but I’m going to work on the projects that draw me and make me happy. I’m going to be happy with just getting certain scenes done if that’s what I can do.
I know everyone is in a different situation, some people are handling this time with a much lower amount of stress, but in my case I am a ball of stress, anxiety and depression. I have to recognize that and work to not worsen the situation – so if I don’t exactly meet this goal I’m not going to beat myself up over it.
I’ve definitely had to prioritize self-care right now, and I have to be ok with that. I’m still working a 40 hour work week (thankfully from home) so while I’m at home, I’m still not having as much free time as you would think. I’m going to write when I’m inspired to write and just be ok with it.
How is everyone else doing? Are you getting any good writing done?
Already the first week of Camp Nanowrimo is coming to a close. Hopefully everyone who is participating is using it as an escape in these very difficult times. It’s been hit or miss with me as it is hard to get into the writing groove when you’re stressed out, but still, I feel as if I have an okay start after the week I’ve had.
My goal for this year’s camp is to get 30k words added onto my first NaNoWriMo project from a couple years ago. While I did win that year and got over 50k words, the story was far from over. I figured this was a great chance to pick it up again and work on it.
So far this month I’ve added 2,781 words to it. Less than I would have liked, but understandable and still a good starting off point. We’ll have to see how the rest of the month goes. Either way I consider it a win if I’m writing and working on it.
Though I’ve participated in NaNoWrimo the last three years, I’ve never taken on Camp NaNoWriMo. To be honest, April tends to be a busy month for me and I usually don’t remember it until it’s too late. Since one of my goals for this year is to get my writing back on track I want to take every opportunity I can.
Now today’s post isn’t just about me saying I’m going to do it, but I’ve officially committed myself and signed up on the site to actually do Camp NaNoWriMo – no going back now!
I’m returning to the project that I did my first year of NaNoWriMo. While I did succeed in writing 50k words that year, the story was far from over. To tell the truth I haven’t written much more in it since then, so I thought this was a great chance to go back to it. For Camp NaNoWriMo I’ve made a goal of 30k words in the month of April.
I’m sure it will be a struggle since I not only read a lot but I also have to juggle my day job and other things that I do on a daily basis. Still, I think it’s totally achievable and have my fingers crossed.